Two More Reasons Why I Survived
A third thing that helped was that I had found a purpose in life, which was to learn to become a jazz pianist. This lead me into composition of New Jazz and Modern Chamber Music, which has been my main focus ever since. To my credit, I’ve composed close to 700 pieces.
I accomplished this because I became obsessed. I had to, because the intense focus drew my attention away from the horror in my mind.
Just like with the profound negative effects, I’m still this way today.
If it hadn’t been jazz, it would have been something, anything, that would give relief - just like the story of the condemned soul who begged for a single drop of water to be placed on his tongue, as he languished in eternal hell-fire.
Such was the desperation.
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A forth activity was drawing and painting. Not only had I read about art therapy, but I was also inspired by the artwork on the walls of the studio of the person I studied piano with, Jessica William’s.
These weren’t works of beauty or exquisite technique, but rather my attempts to come to terms with what had happened to me.
https://georgespicka.weebly.com/art-work.html
In 2017, two of these were featured in an exhibit hosted by Maryland’s First Lady, Yumi Hogan, in Annapolis - as part of a Mental Health Awareness project. I was also able to perform some original piano compositions during the reception.
Those drawings were also included in that years Mental Health America campaign, “Life with a Mental Illness.”
Many of my compositions served the same purpose -
https://georgefspicka-composer.weebly.com/art-videos.html
I accomplished this because I became obsessed. I had to, because the intense focus drew my attention away from the horror in my mind.
Just like with the profound negative effects, I’m still this way today.
If it hadn’t been jazz, it would have been something, anything, that would give relief - just like the story of the condemned soul who begged for a single drop of water to be placed on his tongue, as he languished in eternal hell-fire.
Such was the desperation.
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A forth activity was drawing and painting. Not only had I read about art therapy, but I was also inspired by the artwork on the walls of the studio of the person I studied piano with, Jessica William’s.
These weren’t works of beauty or exquisite technique, but rather my attempts to come to terms with what had happened to me.
https://georgespicka.weebly.com/art-work.html
In 2017, two of these were featured in an exhibit hosted by Maryland’s First Lady, Yumi Hogan, in Annapolis - as part of a Mental Health Awareness project. I was also able to perform some original piano compositions during the reception.
Those drawings were also included in that years Mental Health America campaign, “Life with a Mental Illness.”
Many of my compositions served the same purpose -
https://georgefspicka-composer.weebly.com/art-videos.html